from afar

i've confessed to a few about what i think of him. yes, i do like him. but, he doesn't know and i'd like to keep it that way til i get over the fact that i like him. i've known him for quite awhile now...about a year or so. he's been a friend and i'd like that to continue for a long time, so i decided not to let these emotions get in the way. when i think about it, maybe he's another obstacle i need to get through. he didn't do anything to hurt or disappoint me; it's just maybe because i'm not ready. i'm not ready to open up to anyone especailly towards the opposite sex. i like the way life is going for me right now. although, school has been a drag...i'm dealing. but, sometimes when i see him i wished he knew what was going through my mind...but again, that would just ruin what we already have. maybe it's best to keep it as a secret. maybe one of these days when i don't feel this way about him, i'll let him in on the secret. but as for now, i'm going to admire from afar and continue with my WHAT IF's and WHAT COULD'VE's. i'll leave the situation the way it is and i'll let time play its role. yes, here i go again waiting for fate to determine what will happen next. *SIGH*...whatever made me feel this way? something i can't explain i guess....

ME

free

I'm done crying over you...
I've let go of all the memories
I have of you...
I accepted that you
were never good for me...
I gave up on trying to understand you...
I no longer need you...
You're nothing but,
an illusion created from my past...
I can now stand on my own...
I am finally FREE...FREE from YOU!

~Me